By: William Beebe
In the past I questioned GOD. Doubted the spirit existed, and if it did, thought it wasn’t meant for me. That GOD was a selective GOD. Choosing to help those the spirit deemed worthy. And Churches, well they were just glorified clubs, casting out those that were not invited. I felt I had to go at life alone, that I could do it all by myself, and eventually I felt I knew all the answers. It led me to a world of depression, at times I felt like I was dying. I wasn’t happy for all the typical reasons you might not be happy in life. My finances were not in order, my relationship was heading south, my ambitious plans were not paying off, and I was confused as to what my purpose was. I was binge drinking heavily. My mom said to me, Will, when your heart is heavy, and you can’t put it in to words. Just cry out , JESUS. He’ll hear you. One day I laid on the floor, staring up at the ceiling, with pain in my heart, and cried out for him. The rest is history. God led me the whole way. I reunited with my twin brother on a level of understanding we hadn’t experienced since we were kids. Met a woman that encouraged me to reach out to my dad, and build a relationship she knew I wanted to have. I was inspired by her, a teacher in a Catholic school, with tremendous love and passion for children. Our future. I married her, and we have two kids of our own. But, most importantly, with my mom and dad in my life, and the closeness with my brother again, I feel complete. And when my dad told me that he incorporated this Church in 1994, and just needed help getting it off the ground. I found that purpose. It feels right. GOD is no longer a selective spirit to me now. And the Church is no longer a glorified club. Because Church is not just a building. It is an idea. A unifying Idea. One that helps build lasting bonds of love, and makes people feel strong and whole.